I try to keep these blogs uplifting.  Motivational.  Positive.

But you know what?

Some days suck.

They just do.  Sometimes it seems like everything is a big clusterf…um…mess.

Oh, you know your problems aren’t the worst problems in the world.  You know that other people have it worse than you.  You know that saying that goes something like…”if everyone threw their problems in a pile and started to hand them out evenly, you’d be quick to grab yours back”….blah, blah, blah.  You realistically know all these things.  But sometimes realistic can just kiss your butt.  Sometimes you’re stressed.  Sometimes you’re tired.  Sometimes you have money troubles.  Sometimes you have relationship troubles.  Sometimes you have kid troubles.  Sometimes you have family troubles.  Sometimes you have work troubles.

And then sometimes you have them all at once.

I’m tired.  I’m exhausted.  I’m irritable.  I’m pushing people away.  I’m being irrational.  I hate this about myself sometimes.  I fully recognize it, but when I’m in the mood I’m in, I don’t really want to do anything about it.  I don’t have the energy to be upbeat.  To be positive.  To see the silver lining and whatnot.

Oh, I will.  Tomorrow.  Or maybe the next day.  Everything will resume into its natural order and everything will work out one way or the other.  Like it always does.  But right now?

Right now, I just want to be grumpy.  And that’s ok.  Sometimes it just has to be ok.  There’s no other choice.

See?  I’m human.  Just like you.

Sigh.  This too shall pass.

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“I think I’m chronically exhausted
– Hilary Clinton