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Fix Your Face

“She was not one for emptying her face of expression. ”
– J. D. Salinger

I have a pretty bad habit.

My face shows everything I’m feeling. Everything.

And you know what else it does? It shows everything everyone else is feeling too.

My daughter Kelly has often made fun of me for this. We’ll be watching a movie and I’ll catch her looking at me instead of the screen. When I turn to see what she’s looking at, she breaks out in hysterical giggles and says, “You’re doing it again.” Apparently, whatever the person I’m watching is feeling, I display it on my face. They’re laughing? I’m smiling. They’re crying? My face is all scrunched up. They’re singing? (Oh, Kelly loooooves this one….) My forehead is creased and I’m straining to reach the high notes just like they are.

Well, that last example happened at church Sunday. The choir was singing one of the most beautiful songs ever, and I was feeling it to the core of my being. My face was singing right along with them, when I feel a little elbow go into my side and I hear,

“Mom. Fix your face.”

Fix my face?? What the…. [wait, I’m in church]…crap is she talking about…?

Oh. Oh yeah. That again. Grrrr.

Ever since she said that, I’ve been thinking a lot about it. While, no, I don’t want to look like an idiot, and yes, maybe I do need to work on ‘fixing my face’ sometimes to avoid just that – the deeper meaning behind why I do that maybe isn’t such a bad thing at all.

See this quote?

“All that is in the heart is written on the face.”
– Ritu Ghatourey

Well, I believe that. And I think that the fact that my face reflects what others are feeling is a pretty good sign. I think that shows that I’m empathetic. That I don’t just look around at my fellow members of humanity, I actually take the time to really see them. I feel them. I put myself right in their place and go right along with them on their journey, even if it’s just for a few seconds.

That’s kinda cool, right?

Even if I do look like a complete idiot in the process.

There are a lot of things that we teach our kids when we don’t even realize we’re doing it. I’m sure I have some habits that I’d like for Kelly to overlook (which I’m sure are the ones that she’ll remember best, unfortunately), but this in particular is one of them that I’m not too sorry to pass along to her. Feel for each other. You know? Feel your fellow man’s pain, his happiness, his struggle, his triumph. Anything that happens to another member of humanity, is also happening to you. We’re all in this thing together. Recognize that.

Wouldn’t this world be a much better place if we all did that? All the time?

Well, it would also be a much funnier place if everyone showed that on their face all the time like I do. Kelly sure would get a kick out of it. So, maybe you could just be that way and try to hide it a little better than I do. That might be a better idea.

So, note to self: Yes, listen to your daughter. Fix your face. But your heart? Yeah, that heart is probably right where it needs to be.

No worries.

***

When you start to develop your powers of empathy and imagination, the whole world opens up to you.
– Susan Sarandon

Posted by Melissa Edmondson. Categories: Freestyle Writings/Musings. Tags: blog, daughter, emotions, family, flaws, inspiration, inspirational, lessons, motivation, motivational, parenting, passion, Quotes, teaching, writing. 3 Comments

Aug. ’13

Cool Story

“Nothing’s better than the wind to your back, the sun in front of you, and your friends beside you.”
– Aaron Douglas Trimble

So. Wanna hear a cool story?

Ok, see this pic?

That’s me on the left. And on the right is my friend Zoe. [Isn’t she gorgeous!?]

Ok, so it’s a picture. No big deal, right? Just a pic of two chicks who are friends. Both women, both in the same age range, (both, incidentally, feeling silly taking a ‘selfie’ pic…), both smiling and happy and healthy. I can hear you now – “Yeah? So what?”

Ok, so we’re both runners. Is that a tad more interesting? No? Ok, how about this….We’re both runners training for a half marathon. Slightly cooler, right?

Still nothing earth shattering?

Hmmm.. Alright, let’s try this – we’re training for a half marathon together. Now, is it cool story? Sure it is. Two friends training for a half marathon together. That’s intriguing, no?

Oh shoot. Silly me. I almost forgot the most important part. The part we writers like to call the twist. You ready?

Zoe lives in Australia.

I live in America.

Yep. You read that right.

With 14 time zones, an ocean or two (I sooo didn’t pay attention in Geography class…), and a boat load of cultural differences between us (people use kilometers? Really? I know about the 5K and the 10K, but you mean there are others??), Zoe and I are training partners for our half marathon on November 9.

So, how did this all come about?

Well, it’s pretty simple really. In early May, just a few short months after starting my blog, and just days before my first half marathon, I received my first comment on here that was not from someone I know personally. It said:

Good luck! From Melbourne, Australia!

I just wanted to let you know how much I’m enjoying your writing- I found you when I was searching running blogs as I’m a new runner myself and totally obsessed. You write so evocatively and thoughtfully, and I often find myself smiling or nodding along to your musings! Best of luck with your half, you’ll smash it!

Warm regards,
Zoë

I’ll never forget how thrilled I was to get that message. Not only did it make me realize that other people were reading this stuff (besides my ever-loyal friends and family in real life), but someone was actually reading it in Australia!? What?! How cool is that? This message was the first in what would become a banter between two women all the way across the world from each other over the next few months. And then, when I announced that I would be training for my second half marathon in November, Zoe suggested that we train together.

So, here we are.

We’re only in our first week of training, but I intend to post a few updates along the way to let you know how we’re doing.

Isn’t this great? Someone way over on the other side of the map is my buddy. My training partner. We’ve never laid eyes on each other in person, never heard each others’ undoubtedly cool accents (ok, her cool accent – my southern drawl is nothing much to brag about if you ask me…), and have never even shook hands. In many ways we’re still strangers, but in many other ways – the ways that matter – we’re friends.

We’re just truly never alone, are we? No matter how much we may feel like we are at times, something like this reminds us that we’re not. Somewhere out there, there is someone not only going through whatever you’re going through, but willing to go through it right beside you if you let them.

Yep. That’s good stuff.

Ok, so now is this a cool story? 😉

And guess what? It’s just going to get even cooler. So, stick around!

***

“In union there is strength.”
– Aesop

Posted by Melissa Edmondson. Categories: Freestyle Writings/Musings, Running. Tags: Australia, blog, friendship, friendships, half marathon, health, heart, inspiration, inspirational, marathon, motivation, motivational, passion, photos, Quotes, run, runner, running, running partner, training, training partner, world, writing. 4 Comments

Aug. ’13

Nothing

“We humans have lost the wisdom of genuinely resting and relaxing. We worry too much. We don’t allow our bodies to heal, and we don’t allow our minds and hearts to heal.”
– Thich Nhat Hanh

So, I’ve recently discovered something about myself.

I don’t do enough of Nothing.

(Hush up, grammar police, that was NOT a double negative. I capitalized Nothing, so therefore it becomes a something. See? Seeeee? Ok, now if you will let me continue….)

I have always been someone who is continuously on the go. Sometimes by choice, sometimes not. My life is one of constant movement. I have a job that is over an hour’s drive (one way) from my home, so work alone keeps me on the move for much of the day. Then, in the few hours that I have remaining of the day, I spend my time trying to squeeze in picking up one child from dance, one from cross-country practice, and even…(gasp!) making time for my own activities. I know, right? A mom with her own activities? Trust me, I know how unheard of that is. I have gotten the lecture from strangers and family alike. I get it.

But that’s a blog for another day.

The point is this – I’m busy. And I like it that way.

Well, until I don’t anymore.

Lately, I’ve been noticing that I’m not handling stress well. It’s like I’m in constant “chaos” mode. Whenever anything negative happens – no matter how small said something may be – my brain signals the “catastrophe” alarm. All hands on deck! Snap to attention! This problem MUST be solved. Now! It’s HUGE. The world itself will stop spinning on its axis if this problem is not attended to RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND. Even if said problem is…oh, say maybe I’ve run out of milk at the house? MY CHILDREN ARE GOING TO STARVE, PEOPLE!! Milk must be procured IMMEDIATELY!

Good grief, I’m tired just reading that paragraph.

As a friend of mine posted on Facebook recently:

Yeah. That.

I think it’s finally starting to catch up to me. So, I’ve made a conscious decision to stop.

Yep. That’s it. Just stop.

Now, I’m not going to stop everything of course. Some of the things I do can’t be stopped. (There would be some angry, hungry teenagers sitting outside dance studios and cross-country tracks if that were the case.) And some things I do, I don’t want to stop. My hobbies are more than just “hobbies” really. They define me. I’m a writer – so yes, I want to keep writing. I’m an actor, I want to keep acting. I’m a runner, I’m going to keep running (I’m even training for my second half marathon right now).

But here’s the difference….

I’m going to chill out a little bit. Or rather, I should say, I’m going to allow myself to chill out a little bit.

I have started to cut back quite a bit on my blogging. If you’re a regular follower and you’ve noticed, please allow me to apologize. (Oh, and if this fictitious regular follower person exists, let me extend my deepest gratitude for reading my stuff so often that you actually noticed I was gone. How cool are you!?) Being a writer, I never really stop writing exactly. Phrases and ideas are constantly going through my head. And when they do, I write them down somewhere. But the difference now is that I’m not in such a hurry to get to a computer (or a notebook – yep, I still handwrite things sometimes, can you believe that!?) and put those words and phrases into a story or blog entry. They’ll still be there when I’m ready – when I have time. There’s no deadline. There’s no need to push myself to the point of exhaustion to keep up with some imaginary quota that I’ve invented in my head. That’s ridiculous.

As for acting – I mentioned in a previous blog that it’s time to take a break. Auditions came and went for the next show at my theatre and I didn’t attend. That alone was a source of pride for me – I was actually taking a stand for my own sanity and health and forcing myself to rest a little.

But then something happened that made me really have to put my money where my mouth is. I received a message asking me to consider a role.

Whoa. Ok, now that’s different.

I didn’t even go to auditions…I did what I said I was going to do, right? I stuck to my guns and tried to take a break. But to be asked to play a role? How flattering, right? Acting is what I do. And this role – man, it sounds perfect for me. Right up my alley. It would be ok to accept it just this once and rest later, right?

Nope.

I politely declined and thanked them for the consideration. Wow. I turned down a role. I can honestly say that as an actor, this was a first for me. Acting is so important to me – I would jump at any chance I got to play a role like this in the past. But now? Well. Right now I’m tired. Bone tired. I don’t want to see something I love turn to something that I feel like I have to do. I just can’t let that happen. There will be other shows. When I’m ready.

Now, as for running….yes, I know I just mentioned that I’m training for my next half marathon. I know what you’re thinking. That’s not “stopping,” right? What the heck is up with that?? I thought this chick said she was going to chill out. How is training for a half marathon chilling out? Well, you’re right. It’s not. Not really, anyway. But see – this is something that I really want. Yes, it’s hard work, but the feeling I get when I finish a run – no matter how slow the run happened to be or if I met any ‘goals’ or not – is one that is hard to beat. It is a relaxation in itself. It’s a purging of all that’s wrong with the world. If you’re a runner, I know you know what I mean. Before a run, you can be weighted down with all the worries you can possibly carry – and then after the run, you feel lighter. You feel free. I need that right now. I need to create a better me. A calmer me. A more controlled me.

A me I can live with.

Yesterday, my daughter and I were sitting in the living room at home. The errands were done, homework finished, work and school day complete – and there we were. Just sitting. I looked over at her and said, “Is there something we’re forgetting?” She replied, “What do you mean?” and I said, “Well, I just feel like there’s something we should be doing.” Her response? “I guess it’s all done.”

“I guess it’s all done.”

Yeah.

At that moment, I’m sure there were other things that could have been done. I could have went over my sad budget one more time. I could have washed another load of clothes. I could have exercised, I could have laid out my clothes for the next day, I could have forced myself to start on my next blog. But I didn’t do any of that. At that moment, sitting in my living room in the silence with my daughter, it really was “all done.” Everything else would be there when it was time. But for right then, I allowed myself to bask in the nothingness.

There’s an Italian phrase that comes to mind: dolce far niente. This means, the sweetness of doing nothing.

And it was perfection.

Time to start creating more moments like that in my life.

More dolce far niente? Why, yes, thank you. Don’t mind if I do.

***

“The most valuable thing we can do for the psyche, occasionally, is to let it rest, wander, live in the changing light of room, not try to be or do anything whatever.”
– May Sarton

Posted by Melissa Edmondson. Categories: Freestyle Writings/Musings. Tags: acting, actor, blog, break, change, half marathon, health, heart, inspiration, inspirational, motivation, motivational, Nothing, Rest, runner, running, stop, tired, writer, writing. 3 Comments

Aug. ’13

Happy Badges

So, I’ve decided to give this whole ‘running’ thing a go again. I haven’t officially signed up for it, but there’s a half marathon in November that is calling my name. Eventually (maybe next year?) I want to work my way up to a full marathon, but I’m not quite ready to think of that just yet. So, for now, another half it is.

Next week, my 10-week half marathon training plan will officially start, but I decided to head out on a 4-mile run yesterday to start prepping myself for the longer distances. (Lately, with my time constraints I’ve only been able to work in 2 and 3 mile runs, and those have been few and far between, to be quite honest.) And even though this run was only 4 miles – not even a third of what I’m signing up for – this thing seriously kicked my butt! I had to stop and walk a few times, and maybe even got a tad frustrated with myself at times (shhhh… Miss Positive Pants here can’t admit that, right? Pretend you didn’t hear that.)

So, when my run/walk/curse fest was complete, I hit the ‘save’ button on my MapMyRun software that tracks my routes and times, and I noticed a new option pop up. I saw this:

Hmmmm. Rate my run, huh? Ok, let’s see what my options are.

First up, was this one:

“Finished with a Smile.” HA! Well, I suppose we can mark that one off the list. NEXT!

“Crushed my Goal.” Hmmmm. Well, I suppose if my goal had been to survive, then I could choose this one. Barely. But, alas, it wasn’t. My true goal was actually to run 4 miles without stopping. And that didn’t pan out so well. Well, poo.

Next.

“Kicked Butt.” Aha! Ok, now we’re talking! Check!

Oh, wait.

Crap. I think this is saying that I kicked butt with the run. Shoot. My bad. I thought it was saying the run kicked MY butt. I thought I finally had one I could choose here. *Sigh*

Back to the drawing board….

“Took it Easy.” Hmmmm. We’re getting warmer. Ok, I guess I could choose this one. But that would be a lie. Because I didn’t really take it easy. Yes, I walked some. But it wasn’t because it was my intention. It was because I was mad at myself and I was tired. And I sure didn’t “take it easy” on myself, that’s for sure. So…. Close, but no cigar. Looks like there’s only one option left.

Here we go….

“Grew Strong.” Ok, what? That’s it?? No matter how much I jammed my finger across the screen on my smartphone, the stupid thing wouldn’t scroll anymore to the right for more options. Seriously, that’s all I’ve got to choose from?

Oh.

They’re called “Happy Badges.” Somehow I missed that at the beginning of the instructions. “Pick Your Happy Badge.”

Ha! Happy Badge? Really? I was miserable. I was lazy. I was out of shape; out of breath; out of patience. How the heck am I supposed to pick a happy badge?

And that’s when it dawned on me.

Everything that happens in your life – everything – whether it’s running related or not, falls into one of these categories.

Think about it.

I mean, yeah, it would be great if we could always pick those first four options. Crushing goals, kicking butt, and finishing with a smile are always good things. And sometimes you’re not going to get the absolute best results because you chose to “take it easy.” Nothing wrong with that, right? A life filled with those first four options would be fantastic. Perfect, even.

But unfortunately…. Yeah. Unfortunately, things don’t end up that way all of the time.

And that’s ok. Because you know why?

Sometimes that fifth option is necessary.

If life weren’t filled with things that make you stronger – failures, disappointments, life lessons – I don’t think we’d ever have the opportunity to pick those other options at all. How could you feel the thrill of finishing with a smile or kicking butt if you hadn’t worked through the tough parts to get there? Where would be the sense of pride in crushing a goal if you had never known those times where you fell short, and had the courage and perseverance to get up and try again?

You see what I’m getting at here?

So, no. No goals were crushed this time. No butts were kicked other than my own. But did I grow strong? You darn right I did. I got my butt up off the couch and I started the process that is going to lead me to another half marathon, and that will eventually lead me to a full marathon one day, and that will ultimately lead me to where I’ve been headed all along.

A place where I am proud of myself.

‘Grew Strong’ happy badge? Don’t mind if I do.

“Check!”

***

“The race does not always go to the swift, but to the ones who keep running.”
-Anonymous

Posted by Melissa Edmondson. Categories: Freestyle Writings/Musings, Running. Tags: blog, Brooks, change, changed, half marathon, Happy Badges, inspiration, inspirational, MapMyRun, marathon, motivation, motivational, passion, Quotes, runner, running, writing. 4 Comments

Aug. ’13

Muse

“I never exactly made a book. It’s rather like taking dictation. I was given things to say.”
– C. S. Lewis

This writing thing is weird.

Let me explain…

Lately I have been in a bit of a slump in my life. I have fallen out of love with something that used to be my biggest passion. My sanctuary. My oasis.

Acting.

I actually stumbled across a poem I wrote years ago about how I felt about acting. Mind if I share it with you?

Acting

My passion.

The feel of the hot lights on my face –
The way my heart beats wildly just before the curtain rises –
The adrenaline rush.

My escape.

Reality takes a back seat for two short hours –
Life’s problems are forgotten –
I am no longer me.

Scenes and emotions swirl around me
I get lost in the drama, the melodies;
Dilemmas are solved, Everyone is satisfied –
Happily ever after.

Not like the real world at all.

*sigh*

It makes me sad to read this. The passion that I felt while writing this poem has managed to disappear somehow. My escape from the stresses of everyday life has now become one of the stresses. It has become work. It has become tedious. It has become a chore.

I’m just so tired.

Feeling something you once loved slowly slip over into something you dread is a very unsettling feeling. It can really throw you off course. Something that once defined you and made you who you are is no longer something you even like. That’s crazy! I mean, think about that for a minute. If you don’t like the thing that defines you – the thing that you are, doesn’t that mean that you no longer like yourself?

Hmmm. No wonder this has affected me so deeply.

So, my thoughts are weighted down with this heavy stuff this morning – feeling like I’m going to throw in the towel altogether on this whole acting business – when, as part of my normal morning routine habit, I check my blog stats. Now, my stats show me how many views that each blog entry has received, including when the particular entry was last viewed, and it always surprises me when an older entry has been looked at. It makes me wonder why. Did someone remember it and look it up? Did it show up in some kind of search results? What called this old stuff to someone’s attention now?

This happened this morning, and the blog in question was the one entitled Burnout.

I saw that so many people had viewed it so, on a whim, I clicked on it myself and read it again.

Wow. I wrote that?

At the time when I was writing it, I was talking about running. But, reading it now, it blew my mind realizing how much I could take what I said and apply it to my acting. There was a time that I felt like I would never run again. But I was wrong. After a much-needed break, I’m back. I’m even thinking of signing up for another half marathon in November. Being a runner is in my soul now. It’s too late to turn back. I couldn’t if I tried. I’m a runner, whether I’m running or not.

Wait…what did I just say?

I’m a runner, whether I’m running or not.

Well.

Now, how about that?

I guess after re-reading that old blog entry, it’s safe to say that I can make the same assumption now.

I’m an actor, whether I’m acting or not.

No matter how much I feel like I’m ready to give it up, I’m not. I just need a break. I really needed that reminder.

Who knew that I would be turning to myself for advice? It’s crazy, man. I read this stuff and it’s almost like someone else wrote it. At the time that I write these things, I’m tapping into a source of strength and energy that is not always there. I’m not always positive. I’m not always seeing the ‘silver lining.’ I’m not always someone who Chicken Soup for the Soul is ready to claim as one of their authors. Believe me. I can be just as grumpy and grouchy as the next guy. But somewhere inside me is…well, I don’t know what.

A muse, maybe?

Oh heck, I don’t know what you call it. But whatever it is, I sure am glad it’s there. And I hope that the people reading this stuff can benefit from it the way that I have.

Sometimes I’m actually kind of proud of this thing I do. I can’t wait to see where else it takes me.

***

“…Call it an angel
Call it a muse
Call it karma that you’ve got comin’ to you
What’s the difference?
What’s in a name?
What matters most is never ever losin’ faith
‘Cause it’s gonna be alright
You’re not alone tonight.”
– Keith Urban lyrics

Posted by Melissa Edmondson. Categories: Freestyle Writings/Musings, Poetic Musings. Tags: acting, blog, burnout, chicken soup for the soul, inspiration, inspirational, motivation, motivational, muse, passion, poetry, Quotes, writing. 4 Comments

Aug. ’13

Chicken Soup

I have been kind of keeping something a secret.

Oh, I don’t know why really. I guess at first I wasn’t sure whether I should say something when I wasn’t 100% positive that it was going to be true (I’m still not sure really, but I’ll explain that soon enough). Then, I was a little embarrassed to say something about it. Not sure why that is either really. I guess I just didn’t want to put the cart before the horse or whatever. And then, finally, I was afraid to say something in fear of…well, I don’t know…jinxing it maybe?

But, alas, as my ever-helpful boyfriend said to me about my fear of the jinx (while quoting the great philosopher, Andy Griffith):

“There’s no such thing, Barney.”

(Full of wisdom, that one is.)

Ok. So, jinx be darned, I’m ready to spill my guts.

See this?

This is the cover of a new Chicken Soup for the Soul book that is being released on December 24. And guess what?

There’s a very strong chance that one of my stories will be in it.

EEEEEEK!

Ok, let me back up a little and explain.

About four months ago, after starting my blog and getting some pretty positive feedback from people, I decided to try on a little confidence and see how it fit. I started submitting some of my works. Mostly, I entered a few little contests here and there (one of which I won!), but then I started looking into submitting works for publishing. I stumbled across a webpage that listed various publishers and Chicken Soup for the Soul was on the list. When I saw it, it was like a light bulb went off in my mind.

That’s it!

I had always had trouble deciding how to describe my writing. My grandmother, who is not techno savvy AT ALL and has thus, of course, never seen my blog (and probably has never even heard of the word ‘blog’), would ask me “Well, Melissa, what is it that you write?” I was stumped. I had no idea how to answer that. The things I write certainly don’t fall into the “novel” category (I can barely hold a thought long enough to make a complete sentence, much less maintain a thought for the entire process of writing a NOVEL! Sheesh!); they aren’t short stories really (they aren’t long enough for that, and they’re not fiction); they’re not “essays” exactly, but that was what came to closest to describing them I supposed. But I still couldn’t quite explain to her (or to anyone) what they were exactly.

And then I saw the request for submissions to Chicken Soup and realized that those were exactly what I write. Just like what the Chicken Soup books are filled to the brim with, I write short little nonfiction personal accounts from my own life that I hope will somehow make a difference to someone else. As my friend Chris Hansen once said in a Facebook status, “We are more alike than it seems.” He followed it up with the following quote :

“We are here to awaken from our illusion of separateness.”
– Thích Nhất Hạnh

That was my goal. I wanted many people from many walks of life – no matter their age, religion, social status, whatever – to look at the stories coming from this one little person floating out here on the planet along with them and think, “Hey! That sounds like me!”

So, I decided to take a chance. I sent in a submission to Chicken Soup for the Soul.

Now, I know a lot of my blog readers are “closet writers” – I know this because you tell me so with your “I wish I had the courage to do what you do” emails – so I’m going to describe a little bit about the process. (And for those of you who are not writers, I’ll try to keep it short so I don’t bore you to tears. Or, if you want, you can skip this part. You’re not going to hurt my feelings, I promise.)

First, I perused the Chicken Soup for the Soul webpage and found the “submit your story” link in a column on the left (which I’ll post at the bottom of this blog for you closet writers I referred to earlier…you know you wanna!). When you click here, it will give you a list of some possible upcoming book topics. You then submit your story based on one of these topics. The story has to be nonfiction – it has to be something that happened to you or someone you know – and can’t be made up. You actually have to sign a release form later swearing to the truth of what is contained in the story. The submission is entirely electronic – you just copy and paste the story on to their site and fill in some info about yourself – and Voilà! You’re done. It’s that simple. (And it’s free!) And then what happens next?

You wait.

If your story isn’t chosen, you just don’t hear anything at all. I’ve read that they can get thousands of entries on each individual topic. (Holy cow!) And I’ve also read that it can sometimes take up to FOUR YEARS to hear back from them even if your story is chosen, depending upon when the production date is scheduled for that particular book. So, if your story is chosen among the entries, you get an email from them letting you know. (And that email gives you a small little heart attack and makes you cry…or so I’ve heard…) Then, you go on to provide them a small bio about yourself and sign release and waiver forms with regard to your material being printed in the book.

This is the step that I’m at now. I have just sent in all of my legal forms and wrote a short bio about who I am (50 words or less – that was hard!) to be printed in the book if my story makes the final cut. According to the assistant publisher (who I’ve spoken with by phone and email a few times at this point), the “vast majority” (her words) of the stories that have made it this far will be printed in the book. However, if you’re familiar with the Chicken Soup books, you know that each book is divided into different sub-topics. She explained that sometimes one sub-topic will be “too full” so to speak, and they may have to leave some stories out to keep it balanced.

So…it’s not 100% for sure that I’m in just yet – but I sure am starting to get my hopes up! Keep your fingers crossed for me! (And toes and eyes and whatever else you got…)

When (if?) I’m chosen to appear in the book, the next step will be that I will receive a printed copy of my story to proofread and edit if necessary. Once the editing process is complete, and the book is bound, I will receive ten copies to keep, which I will receive prior to its release date of December 24. One month after publishing, I’ll receive $200 payment for my story.

Wow.

I mean, the money is cool and all, but at this point – who the heck cares!? I’m soooo close to having my work published in a national best-selling book. Oh. My. Gosh. As my daughter said when she heard the news, “I don’t understand why they pay you. Shouldn’t you be paying them?”

Yeah. Exactly.

So, for the next few months, I am probably going to be a nervous wreck. This could be such a huge deal for me. This is big, folks.

But you know what? I think that even if I am one of the unlucky few that have made it this far and yet don’t quite make it into the book in the end – I think it’s still pretty big, regardless. Out of hundreds, maybe thousands, of submissions, my story was chosen. Wow. I’m honored, humbled, and blown away that this is happening to me. And I have each and every one of you who are reading this right now to thank. Because of you taking the time to read this blog and giving me your positive feedback over the months that I’ve been baring my soul for all the world to see, I have gained confidence. I have started to believe that I’m actually a writer. And because of that belief – I have taken a chance. And it may possibly have paid off.

Big time.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for coming along with me on this crazy ride. I’ll keep you posted!

***

“If you wish to be a writer, write.”
– Epictetus

Links:

Link to submit to Chicken Soup: http://www.chickensoup.com/form.asp?cid=possible_books

Link to read more about the Chicken Soup for the Soul: The Dating Game book and/or to pre-order a copy on Amazon.com: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1611599296/102-7001014-7473727?ie=UTF8&tag=chisouforthes-20&linkCode=xm2&camp=1789&creativeASIN=1611599296

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Aug. ’13

One-Sided

“This is the hardest of all: to close the open hand of love, and keep modest as a giver.”
– Friedrich Nietzsche

I want to talk about something that has caught my attention lately.

Givers.

And I don’t just mean givers in general – those who give their slightly used products to Goodwill instead of throwing them away; those who give an extra dollar every time the cashier asks if you want to donate to this or that charity; those who graciously give little presents here and there whenever and wherever they can. Yes, those people are awesome (go team!), but no – that’s not what this blog is about. I want to be a little more specific. I want to talk about the givers in relationships.

To be even more specific, I want to talk about the givers in one-sided relationships.

[Now in this blog only (and I do apologize for this because I don’t usually do this kind of thing), I want to specifically talk about the woman in this kind of relationship. Yes, I know that one-sided relationships can go either way – sometimes it’s the man giving their all while the woman does next to nothing to contribute (and sometimes it can happen within a same sex couple, which really throws a wrench into my theory here) – but as the author of this blog, I can only talk about what I know. And what I know is what I’ve witnessed and what I’ve experienced. In that experience, limited though it may be, I have seen that the giver is usually the woman. I promise I’ll explain why I think that is soon.]

So. One-sided relationships. Oh boy, have I been there. I also know a few friends who have been there, and I know some friends who are there now. Not following what I mean exactly by one-sided relationships? Ok, let me set the stage for you.

You’re with this guy and you just absolutely adore him. He’s cute, he’s charming, he’s loving (well, most of the time)…man, you think you’ve hit the jackpot with this one. So, you’re going to make absolute certain that you don’t screw this one up. You’ve been known to screw things up in the past, so this time is going to be different. First order of business? Make sure he knows that you’re not one of those “needy” chicks that expects the man to pay for things when you go out. Oh no siree, not you, Miss Woman of the 21st Century. You are independent and self-sufficient and he needs to know it. So, on the first couple of dates, you pay for yourself. Nothing wrong with that, right? You feel good about it – he seems impressed – win/win. But then, as time goes by, you start paying for a few more things here and there – you start buying both of your meals. You not only want to show that you’re independent, but you want to show him how much you care. And we know how much a man loves food, so let’s buy him some. Well, eventually, that doesn’t seem to be enough. You don’t feel like he knows that you care. And if he doesn’t know, then he might not stick around, right? Better do a little bit more. Let’s start buying him gifts. Yeah – that’ll do the trick. First, a little gift here and there. No biggie – it’s sweet, right? Then, those gifts start getting a little larger…he’s into cars? Let’s buy him some car accessory we saw him ogling. He likes a certain movie? Let’s find the special collector’s edition DVD of it and give it to him for no good reason. He likes a certain book? Ok, never mind…I’ve went too far. We all know men don’t read books….

(KIDDING, fellas!)

So, you catch my drift, right? Eventually, somewhere along the line, the idea has entered your head that you can earn this man’s love. Now, I don’t mean to emphasize monetary gifts, per se. Sometimes it may just be cooking him dinner, or making him something, or writing him notes…whatever. The point is, you are doing a heck of a lot more than he is.

Why is that?

Ok, well, I can hypothesize on this all day, but I’ll try to narrow it down. There are so many possible reasons why women feel the need to do this, but first and foremost is this: we were raised this way. Now, I know that times are changing and women are much more independent than they were in times gone by. But at the heart of who we are is the need to nurture. We are the ones who bear the children, we are the ones whose bodies produce the milk to feed our young, we are the ones who are taught from an early age to keep the peace, to keep our loved ones happy. It’s just the way it is, like it or not. And honestly, I’m cool with that. The role we women play is a pretty important one, a necessary one, and we should be proud.

But here’s the problem with that. We sometimes may tend to transfer that over to our romantic relationships. And then when the relationship doesn’t work out, we think we didn’t play our role correctly, so we try harder the next time. And if that one doesn’t work out? Try even harder the next time.

You following me?

Because of our nature, we think that we have to give, give, give in order to be loved. Check out these snippets of lyrics from the song “Little Miss” by Sugarland:

“Little miss checkered dress
Little miss, one big mess
Little miss, I’ll take less when I always give so much more…
Little miss, do your best
Little miss, never rest
Little miss, be my guest, I’ll make more anytime that it runs out…”

See? It’s who we are. There are even songs about it. And don’t get me wrong – like I said before, being this way is a good thing. It really, really is. But the problem is that sometimes we end up with men who take advantage of that. Now, am I blaming them for that? No, not really. As much as I like to blame men for everything, I’m not sure I can put this one on them. Much like we were raised the way we were, they were also raised the way they were – as the recipient of this nurturing. Why wouldn’t they accept it? It’s natural to them. They’re thrilled with it – who wouldn’t be?

Well, I’ll tell you who ends up not thrilled. Us.

Women.

Over time, we start feeling like we are the only one doing anything in the relationship. Like we are the only ones keeping it going – we are the only ones busting our butts to make sure the relationship is happy and fulfilling, while the man just reaps the benefits. We give, they take. My coworker Tina, who is always filled with words of wisdom, has said this phrase to me many times:

“You teach people how to treat you.”

We have taught them that this is the way it is. That the relationship will continue without any effort on their part, because we have it covered. No worries, Mr. Man, we got this. We’re women, we’ll take care of everything.

But you know what? That’s really not cool.

And when we start realizing it’s not cool, and start realizing that things are one-sided, we start to feel resentful towards the man. We start hoping that he will change. But guess what? He’s not going to.

You know who has to change? You.

Again, like I’ve said many times in my blogs, I certainly don’t have all the answers. I’ve been through my share of failed relationships, and I’m sure I played a huge personal role in those failings at times. I’m no different than you are. The only thing I’m hoping to do here is shine a light on something that might be wrong in your life that you have the power to right. Don’t stop being a giver altogether, I’m not saying that. But maybe you could just try not to give quite so much. Maybe you can try not to control so much and have a little faith. Let things happen on their own, without so much forced effort. I don’t know – just try it for a while. See what happens.

Hey, you never know – the man in your life may just be waiting for the chance to show you he cares, if you’ll just leave him a little room to do it.

And if he doesn’t? If he doesn’t rise to the challenge and the relationship falls apart because you are no longer in the driver’s seat? Well, then I guess you know that little instinct you’ve been ignoring has been trying to tell you something, hasn’t it?

Relationships, man. This crap ain’t for the faint of heart, I’m tellin ya….

***

“Yeah, I’m a giver. I’ve learned to be selective of the people in my world, because if I love someone, I will give them my blood, whatever they need. In doing so, one can end up with little left for themselves.”
-Brittany Murphy

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Aug. ’13

34

“God gave us the gift of life; it is up to us to give ourselves the gift of living well.”
– Voltaire

Today, August 1, 2013, is the last day that I will ever be 34 years old.

As you get older, birthdays don’t seem to hold the same significance that they did when you were younger. Have you noticed that? You don’t really “look forward” to them anymore. In fact, at some point, they become something that you even somewhat dread. (Another year older!? Really??) But I have decided that, starting this year, I’m going to put a stop to that nonsense.

As I prepare to turn the page to 35, I’m going to take a moment to look back over the year I was 34. The good, the bad – everything notable that took place during my time on this earth as a 34-year-old. Each year holds special moments that are gone in the blink of an eye – moments that we will never get back and can only be relived through memories. They should be cherished and appreciated and yes, even celebrated – the bad, along with the good. But most important of all, they should be noticed. For these are the moments that make us who we are – the moments that shape and mold us into the awesome, unique individuals that comprise humanity, and that give each of us our own story to tell.

So, here’s mine.

Please join me as I look back over the 34 most notable events of my 34th year (in no particular order):

1. I started a blog. I had toyed with the idea for years, but I finally got up the courage to do it this year. And it has been AMAZING! If you’re reading this, you’re one of the reasons why. I’m blown away by how many people read this thing and by all the responses I have gotten from it. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you.

2. I got my first writing award (and check!). I got up the nerve to enter a local writing contest and was shocked to get a letter in the mail saying that I had won first place in the essay category. Woohoo!

3. I got my first rejection letter. Yep. A real-life “your stuff isn’t what we’re looking for” letter. And you know what? I actually thought it was kind of cool. Really. You’re not a real writer until you get a rejection. Initiation complete.

4. I saw Niagara Falls. And it was AWESOME!

5. I saw my first marathon. A group of us traveled to New York for the Wineglass Marathon. Many in the group were running the marathon, some running the half marathon, and some, like myself, were just there to watch. There was NOTHING like it. One of my favorite running-related quotes of all time: “If you lose faith in humanity, go watch a marathon.” – Kathrine Switzer. There is so much truth to that. The feeling of camaraderie and “oneness” between the runners and spectators alike was something that I don’t even know how to put into words. This was definitely one of the highlights of my 34th year, hands down.

6. I ran a 5K in New York, and got my personal best time of 30:55. The day before the marathon, there was a 5k as part of the festivities surrounding the event. I decided to run it in, and ended up getting my best personal 5K time. My boyfriend captured this picture at the very moment that I looked up and saw the time clock at the finish line. I just love it. The picture says it all. It was nice to feel so proud of myself.

7. My son joined the cross country team at school. This was such great news to me. I was so proud of him, and felt like my running had made an influence on that decision. Since joining the team, he has gone on to race in a few races with me, and place in many of them (including a 3rd place overall finish for one of them!). I’m such a proud mom.

8. I ran my first 10k. Shortly after returning from the New York trip, I knew that I couldn’t stop at 5Ks. It was time to start training for longer distances. My first 10K was a trail run, and I ran it with my son. I wasn’t fast, but I was very proud. And it was the first time that the thought entered my mind that I might even be able to go further than that. Which brings me to #9..

9. I ran my first half-marathon. Wow. All of my hard work paid off and I crossed that finish line with possibly more pride in myself than I had ever felt before. Not too shabby for a 34-year-old, if I don’t say so myself.

(Here’s the blog entry about the half marathon if you’d like to read more: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/05/04/i-did-it/)

10. I watched my boyfriend Richard be inducted as the Master of the Ashe Masonic Lodge #594. This was actually very, very cool. I had never seen anything like this ceremony (I’m a chick – we’re not allowed, ya know), and I admit that I went into it thinking that the rituals and secrecy were somewhat silly. But I came away with a deeper understanding of how much this fellowship means to those men, and what good, kind, noble men each and every one of them are. I was so incredibly proud to be Richard’s girlfriend that day. I won’t forget it anytime soon.

11. I started attending a new church. My boyfriend and I, along with our kids, have started attending Bethany United Methodist Church. It has been nice to feel like a part of a church family again. I needed that.

12. I moved. I finally took the plunge and moved out of a place that I was unhappy at. It has made all the difference in the world. It’s such a great feeling to actually look forward to going home for a change. Definitely a noteworthy event from my 34th year.

13. We lost our pet, Chicago. Little Chicago was something else. While just a kitten, my daughter found him in an old trash can outside our home. He had been hurt badly (we still don’t know by what – or whom), and could not move his hind legs. Kelly carried him around like a baby for weeks, feeding him milk from a tiny measuring spoon and giving him little kitty pain pills that an animal-loving friend of ours had provided. I just knew the little guy wasn’t going to make it, but alas – he surprised us all. He was with us for four years. I pretended like I didn’t like the little guy (he had THE MOST annoying meow in the world), but I feel his loss more than I ever thought I would have. We miss you, annoying little Chicago. You were loved.

14. I saw my grandma turn 83. Such a spry, spunky little Grandma she is too.

15. I lost another grandparent. My grandpa, Paul Pridemore (who we all referred to as “Mr. P.”) passed away during my 34th year. Mr. P. lived a long, happy, healthy 96 years on this earth and will be missed by everyone who knew him. I’ll bet he wasn’t the type to dread another birthday. He served as a good example to live life to the fullest while we’re here. I hope I’ll live to make him proud.

16. I ran the path that my other grandpa, Greene Halsey, had walked to school. This is something that I had wanted to do for a long time, and finally did it during my 34th year. I’ll post the link to the blog if you’d like to read more about it. I was very proud to have finally done this. https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/02/25/uphill-both-ways/

17. I sang in public for the first time (sort of). Ok, so technically, I had done this before in musicals. And at karaoke. But getting up and singing with my boyfriend at one of his gigs was SO nerve-wracking. I couldn’t believe I had the courage to get up there. It was hard – and I was shaking like a leaf – but I did it. And have done it a few more times since. Definitely a noteworthy moment from age 34.

18. I lost Richard. Definitely not one of the happiest moments of age 34, but noteworthy nonetheless. Richard and I split up for 2 months. We both tried to move on, but we found our way back (thank God). I think we both grew up more during those 2 months than we had in a long time. Sometimes you just have to travel alone for a while (whether you want to or not) to find out what’s really important. And I definitely found out what was important. Him. I’m so glad he’s back.

19. I witnessed two little miracles. I saw the tiniest babies I had ever seen in my life – and they belonged to my sister. Her twins were born 10 weeks too early. Not many things have affected my life like seeing those tiny little healthy human beings. I’m so amazed at the technology that we have now that allowed for these two to survive.

Here they were then:

And here they are now:

(Again, if you’d like to check out the blog post about these little angels, here’s the link: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/04/03/week-old-miracles/)

If the 33-year-old Melissa didn’t believe in miracles, this 34-year-old Melissa sure as heck does.

20. I was the subject of a blog. My boyfriend and I were interviewed for a very public blog that was read by tons of people. How cool is that?! Definitely the first time that has ever happened. I was famous for a day!

Links: (Here’s the link to the actual blog: http://www.8womendream.com/55851/improve-womens-self-esteem / And here’s the link to my own blog post about the blog: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/05/22/self-image-part-2/)

21. I was on TV. Yep. My first TV appearance. I was interviewed for an art segment of a local channel regarding the role I was playing in an upcoming production. Awesomeness. Another first occurring in year 34. (blog link: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/03/12/fear/)

22. I starred in my first lead female role with Ashe County Little Theatre. I was so proud to have been cast as Mother in the show Life With Father. It took me a long time to become a part of this theatre, and this was such a monumental moment for me. I will remember it always. (Plus, my boyfriend’s son Riley got to play as one of my sons. Added bonus.)

23. My daughter starred in her first lead role ever. I have been involved in theatre for pretty much my whole life, but I never knew the meaning of “nervous” until I felt what I felt just before the curtain rose on opening night of Annie. Watching my baby girl stepping on to the stage in the title role was beyond anything I’ve ever felt before. I was so incredibly proud of her. Not only for her ability, but for her poise and humility throughout the production. This kid is going to go places. Mark my word.

(Related blog post: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/06/26/tomorrow/)

24. Lost a friend. Although I don’t count this as one of the highlights of my 34th year, I had a falling out with a very close friend. Looking back, I’m not so sure the problem was worth ending a friendship over (is it ever?), but it happened nonetheless. And it should be noted in this list. Perhaps I can come back with an update in year 35 that this has been mended? Perhaps. Either way. Friendship lost – duly noted on the list – moving along…

25. Mended a friendship. While we’re on the topic, I might as well mention that I regained a friend in my 34th year. This is a story that I hope to tell in a future blog, but for now, I’ll just say that it’s nice to have found my old friend again. And to know all is well. Everything always works out ok in the end, right? Chris, I’m glad you’re back.

26. Ran my first obstacle race. The Warrior Dash. *sigh* I don’t even have the energy to talk about this one anymore. If you want to read about it, I’ll post the link. You probably don’t though. It was NOT the best experience. But good or bad, it made the “34” list, so I guess it was notable.

(Blog link: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/06/03/warrior-dash-or-as-i-like-to-call-it-hell/)

27. Richard and I introduced each other to the fam. That’s a big deal. We were each thrown into the big, loud, happy mix at each other’s family get-togethers over the holidays, and then in a few events (some sad, some happy) since then. Nothing makes you feel like a “real” couple more than getting included in the family (dis)functions. 😉

28. We took our first ‘family’ trip to the beach. Richard’s family has this super cool tradition that spans the years (starting even before he was born) of all getting together to go to Myrtle Beach once a year. It’s a glorified family reunion, if you will. And this year, my kids and I were included. And that’s awesome. It meant so much to me to be included in something so special, and is definitely noteworthy in my 34 list.

29. Made it through a cancer scare. I was a basket case during the fall of my 34th year. We found a lump on my son’s neck that wouldn’t go away. 17 years ago, the same thing had happened to me when I was just a few years older than he was. And I had Hodgkin’s lymphoma. After excruciating weeks of waiting and worrying, a surgery was finally scheduled to remove the lump from his neck and have it tested. And – thank God – it was benign. There is no worry like that of a mother for her child. I gained a new appreciation and understanding for my own mother through this ordeal, and I hope to never have to go through anything like it again.

30. Got a standing ovation – mid-show. Now, THAT was cool. Of course, I was playing Elvis (sort of). And I sang Heartbreak Hotel. And I looked like this:

But still. Standing ovations mid-show just don’t happen. That was definitely one for the 34 list. Hands down.

31. Went to an AWESOME wedding. Now, you know if a wedding made the list, it must have kicked butt. Well…it did. That was the most fun I have had in a while. It was theatre-themed and full of people I love – how could you go wrong? I even blogged about it. (https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/05/13/completion/)

Thanks Jim & Rebecca for giving us these memories to cherish.

32. Visited the house Richard lived in when he was born. We took a little detour on the way back while we were in New York for the marathon, and swung by to take a look at the house that Richard lived in for the first six months of his life. It was the first time he had seen it since. That was a pretty cool moment. Very sentimental. I was proud to be able to tag along for that moment. That was a good “age 34” memory.

33. 4-mile Abingdon race with my son. Now, why did this make my list? Sure, I’ve run plenty of races by now – and quite a few of them with my son. But there was just something about this one. Most notably, when my son finished the race (well ahead of me, of course), he turned around and came back on the track to find me, and finished with me. It would be pretty difficult to leave that moment off of the top 34 list. Have I mentioned that I’m a proud momma?? (Blog post: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/03/17/favorite-race-so-far/)

And finally. We’ve reached #34. I saved what I felt was the most notable event for last. (And incidentally, if you’ve made it this far – I’m impressed.)

34. I was in a car accident. In April of my 34th year, I was in a pretty bad car accident. I totaled my car but, miraculously, walked away with only a few scratches. You don’t come away from something like that without some sort of “indention” on your life. It leaves a mark. The only thing that remained intact from my accident, besides myself, was my drivers side mirror. I found the mirror at the accident site days later, and took it home as a reminder. True to my word (as I mentioned in a blog post shortly after – https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/04/08/reflection/), I keep this mirror beside my bed on my nightstand. I feel like it serves a reminder that I’m still here. I’m still here. Life didn’t stop at 34. And there’s probably a reason for that.

And I fully intend to spend the rest of my time here on earth figuring out exactly what that is.

So, thank you. Thank you, reader, for taking this trip down memory lane with me. You know – you would think that it would be hard to come up with 34 things over a year that were notable, wouldn’t you? But I actually found myself having to weed some out. Isn’t that crazy? It’s amazing how much you realize actually happens in your world when you sit down and take the time to pull each event out and shine a light of remembrance on it. We should do this more often, shouldn’t we?

Goodbye, 34. You were awesome.

Hello, 35. You ready? We’ve got a lot of work to do. Let’s get started.

***

“The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate.”
– Oprah Winfrey

Posted by Melissa Edmondson. Categories: Freestyle Writings/Musings. Tags: 34, 35, age, birthday, blog, blogging, daughter, family, friendship, half marathon, heart, heartbreak, inspirational, memories, motivational, photos, Quotes, relationships, theatre, writing. 4 Comments

Jul. ’13

Burnout

“Take a rest. A field that has rested gives a bountiful crop.”
– Ovid

I just remembered something.

I’m a runner.

Did you remember that? Because I didn’t. I’m tellin’ ya – I seriously think I forgot about that for a while.

I have these little ‘categories’ set up on my blog. Not sure if anyone ever notices that you can search for writings under the categories, but I thought it was a cool option when I was designing this thing, so I went with it. I set up four categories – Freestyle Writings, Poetic Musings, Running, and Songs. When I first started out, I was afraid that the “running” category would be jam packed, and that my readers who were non-runners would be bored senseless. I was at the peak of my running ‘career’ at that point – training my tail off for my first half-marathon (which I successfully completed in May, by the way). I was full of wit and wisdom for new runners and amateur runners like myself – hoping to show everyone that anyone can do this running thing and that you just have to push through and believe in yourself and persevere through the obstacles…..yada yada. So on and so forth.

But then – well, I don’t know.

I just kinda just stopped that.

I just clicked on my own “Running” tab to see the last thing I had written about running. It was this: https://missyspublicjunk.wordpress.com/2013/06/04/time-to-chill/ Oh. An article called “Time to Chill.” Well, that explains it.

At that time, I was all prepared to purchase this t-shirt and hang up my running shoes:

Yep. I was done for a while.

In other words, I had been….

Hehe. Get it? Running on empty? Oh, the wit.

But I digress.

So, yeah. I had achieved what many of us have achieved in many different areas of our lives at some point. Anytime you’re passionate about something; you spend all your time doing said something; you dedicate your heart and soul and spirit to the something – there exists the risk of running into that little devil who is always waiting just around the corner to put a stop to it all. What is this little devil, you ask?

Burnout.

“Burnout is nature’s way of telling you, you’ve been going through the motions – your soul has departed; you’re a zombie, a member of the walking dead, a sleepwalker.”
– Sam Keen

That’s just it. I had become a sleepwalker.

So, you know what I did? I took a break. And I think that’s the smartest thing I could have done for myself.

In the past few weeks, I’ve noticed that I’ve started feeling the pull again. I started with a few short runs – a mile or two here and there. And slowly, I find myself inching my way back up. A 4-miler here. A 5-miler there. And yesterday – I did my own little 10K just to prove I could. Little by little, I’m making my way back. I saw a post yesterday for a 7-mile run up and down a mountain road here locally. Hmmmm. I have two months to train….

My point is this. Burnout is real. No matter how much you love something, no matter how much a part of your life it becomes, overdoing it can be problematic. It really can. It’s ok to take a break. You know? Chill out a little bit. Let things settle. Let yourself remember why you love this thing so much and why you ever started it in the first place.

Are you a runner? Well, there. Apply this lesson literally. But if you’re not? Well then, I’m sure there’s something you can apply it to.

Maybe even someone? Now, there’s some food for thought.

But see, here’s the thing. When you want it bad enough, when it has become a part of you, it won’t disappear. I promise. Taking a break is not going to un-do any progress you made. This thing you love is not going to go away. Not when it’s real.

Rest easy. Stop worrying. It will be back. You’ll see.

***

“”Sometimes in sports there are times when it is best to wait for another day and try again, at least for me. I see life as the race and I see no honor in reaching the finish and passing out or crawling across the finishing line. In Costa Rica, we have a saying: It’s not about being the first to finish, it’s about how you get there.”
-Roman Urbina

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Jul. ’13

Facebook

It has been on my mind for a while to do a blog about Facebook. I attempted to deactivate my account recently due to…well, I don’t know what really. I guess I just got sick of it. A lot of my problems lately have seemed to somehow stem from something Facebook related, so I was ready to be done with the whole thing. But my attempt was short-lived. I came crawling back. Like we all do. Don’t lie, you know you’ve done it too. This whole process got me thinking that I should blog about Facebook. You know – the good, the bad, the ugly, the whole nine yards.

Now, let me explain how this whole “blog” process works for me. First: something happens in my life, or I see something significant that strikes a chord, or an interesting thought pops into my mind…whatever the case may be…and I decide that I’m going to write a blog about it. Once the decision is made, the next step is to look for quotes. If you’re a regular reader, I’m sure you’ve noticed that there are very few (if any?) of my blogs that don’t end with a quote. Some also start with one, and most have them interspersed throughout the blog as well. I absolutely adore quotes. I am a lover of conversation and, to me, quotes are just noteworthy snippets of conversation between other humans who were going through something similar to what I was going through. Quotes make us feel connected to each other.

And I think that’s pretty cool.

So, back to Facebook. Once I decided to do a blog about this topic, I went about my usual method. I started searching for quotes. And here is what I’ve decided. Rather than droning on and on about the pros and cons of Facebook, like I had originally intended to do, I’m just going to let the quotes speak for themselves. People have already said it better than I have, so I’ll let them do the talking this time. Ready?

Here we go.

First, one that I think pretty much sums up the whole topic in a nutshell:

“I didn’t know what Facebook was, and now that I do know what it is, I have to say, it sounds like a huge waste of time.”
– Betty White

Right on, little Betty.

Oh, and while we’re at it, let’s throw in another cute one from Betty just for our comedic pleasure:

“People have told me ‘Betty, Facebook is a great way to keep in touch with old friends…’ At my age, if I wanted to keep in touch with old friends, I’d need a Ouija board.”
– Betty White

Hehe. Oh, Betty, girl you cray cray.

Ok, moving along.

On a more somber note, here’s a notable one that really struck a chord with me:

“I feel like I’m part of a generation of people who are stuck in the past and are really self-absorbed. I mean, we’re actually taking pictures of ourselves and posting them on Facebook, and keeping in touch with people that should have been out of our lives 15 years ago.”
– Diablo Cody

That one touched right on the whole reason I wanted to write this blog in the first place. My recent disdain with Facebook began when I started having troubles with someone from my past giving me a hard time on Facebook. It took me much too long to realize that just because someone was a part of your past, that was no reason to carry them into your future solely due to their presence on some silly social network. *BLOCK*

Ok, I promised I wouldn’t talk much in this blog, so back to the quotes.

While we’re on the topic of not letting go of the past, here’s an interesting one:

“America’s Facebook generation shows a submission to standardization that I haven’t seen before. The American adventure has always been about people forgetting their former selves – Samuel Clemens became Mark Twain, Jack Kerouac went on the road. If they had a Facebook page, they wouldn’t have been able to forget their former selves.”
– Jaron Lanier

Wow. Again, I’ll try not to comment. Just let that sink in for a minute.

(And if you had to look up Jack Kerouac, don’t feel bad. I did too. Unless I’m the only one who didn’t know who that was. And if that’s the case, then I’m just kidding.)

Moving on…

What do you think about this one?

“I would argue heavily that the time that has been allocated to social networking used to come from television, and people are benefitting from it. People who are saying, ‘Aw, you’re spending all your time on Facebook…,’ well, I’d like to understand what that person used to do with that time.”
– Gary Vaynerchuk

I think this Gary dude might be on to something. I know I rarely watch TV anymore. Good thing? Bad thing? Eh, who knows. It’s not my turn to talk anyway, so I won’t hypothesize. I promised to shut up.

Moving along.

Ahhh, here we go:

I couldn’t find an actual person to attribute this quote to (and I HATE that), but it was too good not to post. Made me giggle. (Because, hey – I’m the QUEEN of posting pics on Facebook. Just ask some of my haters, they’ll tell you.)

Now, how about this one for you voyeurs out there (you know who you are):

“I am a Facebook voyeur. I feel bad about it because I never put anything on there, but I find it fun to sit there and watch peoples’ lives go by. Or whatever lives they’re presenting.”
– Eddie Kaye Thomas

Hmmm. That last part is a zinger, wouldn’t you say?

On that same note:

Yup.

And again:

“There is something decidedly faux about the camaraderie of Facebook.”
– Bill Keller

Hmmmm. Would you agree?

Let’s dig a little deeper. This one combines Facebook with one of my passions…acting:

“When playing a role, I would feel more comfortable, as you’re given a prescribed way of behaving. So, both Facebook and theatre provide contrived settings that provide the illusion of social interaction.”
– Jesse Eisenberg

Ouch. Ok, anyone else feel their toes being stepped on, or is that just me?

Yes. Here’s to hoping for that.

Or, how about this one in the “food for thought” category:

“With Facebook, you’re not really allowed to be unhappy. Think about it: There’s only a ‘like’ button. Yes, you can be angry, but it’s only lighthearted rage. On Reddit, perhaps because you can be anonymous, people are willing to be openly sad or angry. They are more honest.”
– Yishan Wong

(Let me break my “I promise I’ll shut up” rule here for a second with a loud, “DING DING DING.” Ok, I’m quiet again…)

Now, let’s explore the word “friend” on Facebook, shall we?

“I don’t need to go onto Facebook and pretend to have friends I’ve never even met. To my mind, that kind of destroys the meaning of the word ‘friend.’ I take exception to that. Because I value and respect friendship.”
– Stefanie Powers

Hmmm. What do you say to that? Do you consider all of your Facebook friends as “real” friends? Interesting. But I’m shutting up, remember?

[Wait, one more thing before I shut up. I think it’s interesting that there is a “close friends” list option. I think this should be renamed “people that are actually important in your everyday life.” At least that’s what mine should be named. How about yours?]

Ok, I am fully aware that these quotes and tidbits are all teetering on the ‘negative’ side. I’ll throw a few positive ones in for good measure, don’t worry.

But not yet.

Hehe. Ok, sorry.

Ok, positive. Positive. Hmmmm. Let’s see. Oh, ok, let’s see what Mr. Zuckerberg himself has to say about it:

” The thing that we are trying to do at Facebook is just help people connect and communicate more efficiently.”
– Mark Zuckerberg

Ok, Mark. I hear ya. Hey, Facebook is what gets my blog out there, right? I think you may be right. Or how about this one:

“No one has done a study on this, as far as I can tell, but I think Facebook might be the first place where a large number of people have come out. We didn’t create that – society was generally ready for that. I think this is just part of the general trend that we talked about, about society being more open. And I think that’s good.”
– Mark Zuckerberg

What do you think? Ok, I know I promised to shut up, but one quick thing here. You may not agree with me on the gay rights issue, and hey – that’s your conscience you have to live with, my friend – but I can tell you that more than one of my homosexual friends over the years has contacted me privately and thanked me for loving them and publicly supporting them with my Facebook posts and for not treating them like they were any different than I am. Think what you want about that, but as far as I’m concerned – if I’ve made even one person feel less alone with a Facebook post, then it’s all been worth it. I’m proud of that.

*Sigh*

Ok, I don’t know where else I can go with this blog after that. Yes, I tried to “run away” for a few days, but I came back. I guess it was a little something like this:

I don’t know that I was exactly ‘looking for attention’ (honestly, I was trying to hide from it), but I do get the ‘running away from home’ reference. Do I consider Facebook to be “home?” Well, I hope not. Not to that extent anyway. But you know what I do consider it?

Life.

Facebook is life. It’s a mixture of things that make you smile, make you sad, make you laugh, make you cry, and sometimes things that make you so angry that you try to run away for a while. But that’s just it. You can’t escape life. You can try not to look at it for a while, you can even try to pretend it’s not there and it’s not still going on if you’re not around to see it, but you know what? It is. Like Dolly Parton says,

“The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with a little rain.”

You gotta take the bad with the good, people. It’s all there for the taking. And whether you jump in there and show off, or whether you choose to just sit back and watch – either way, it’s life. It’s there and it’s not going anywhere.

And you’re a part of it.

Kinda cool in a way. Don’t you think?

Thanks for reading. I know I didn’t say much in this one – just sat here quiet as a little churchmouse (*giggle*), but I appreciate you coming along for the ride anyway.

(And hey – I’m willing to bet you clicked on a link on Facebook to get here, didn’t you?)

😉

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“If you don’t take the chance to live life, what can you say at the end of it?”
– Naveen Andrews

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[Footnote: Before I close out, I wanted to mention something I thought was interesting about this blog. I went back to edit before posting, as I always do, and I noticed that I alternated between capitalizing “Facebook” and not capitalizing “facebook.” I’m still not sure what the “correct” thing is to do, but I thought it was a little poetic that I didn’t know whether to attribute the importance of a capital letter to the name. Kinda what this whole blog is about, wouldn’t you say? Interestingly enough, I chose to capitalize. Deduce what you will….]

Posted by Melissa Edmondson. Categories: Freestyle Writings/Musings. Tags: acting, blog, expression, facebook, friendship, inspiration, inspirational, livinglife, motivation, motivational, passion, performance, photos, Quotes, sharing, theatre, views, writing, writing process. 3 Comments

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