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Uphill Both Ways

“When I was your age, we had to walk to school uphill both ways…”
– Every Older Person There Ever Was

Yesterday I ran a route that I’ve been wanting to run ever since I started running.  There hasn’t been much of a reason why I haven’t done it yet.  At first, I wasn’t ready for it (physically or mentally); then I wanted to wait for a special occasion on the calendar (all of which came and went); then it was Winter, etc. etc. etc.  Not sure why I put it off as long as I did.  But yesterday, without even any true destination in mind, I put my running clothes on, hopped in the car, and just drove.  I ended up here:

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This is the house that is still standing in the Potato Creek community in Virginia, where my grandpa was born and raised.  He passed away in February of last year.

He wasn’t much of a talker when he was with us.  Very quiet – filled with secrets.  But my grandmother filled in the gaps.  Through her, I’ve heard about the house he grew up in and have learned about the hilly path he had to walk on to school and back and everyday.  I’ve driven this path many times, but ever since I became a runner, I have always wanted to run it.  It’s not that far to me now (a little more than four miles), but when I first started running, I knew I wasn’t ready for that distance.  And distance wasn’t really the issue anyway.  Holy crap, is that thing hilly!  But I kept telling myself that one day I would be ready to run it.  Turns out, yesterday was the day.

This may have been one of my favorite runs ever.  It may sound crazy, but a part of me felt like my Pa-Paw was actually running with me.  I’m not sure he cared for the Kelly Clarkson, Pink, and Cee Lo Green that was busting out of my headphones, but nonetheless, I think he kept up.  In fact, I think he probably passed me a few times.  Especially on those dang hills!  Did I mention there were hills?  (From now on, when an older person tells me they walked uphill to school both ways, I’m not questioning that statement. I just found out for myself!)

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But man, were those hills beautiful.  The whole route was beautiful.  For a little less than an hour, I stopped thinking, stopped feeling, stopped obsessing, and just ran with my grandpa.

The old school that he went to is no longer standing.  From what I understand, it burned down years ago (long after it was no longer used as a school and was just being used as a barn for local farmland).  After the run, I went and looked at the area a little and this was the only remnants of the school that I found:

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Here’s a view of the whole area where the school stood:

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And still standing (and still in operation on occasion) just beside the old school land is the church that he attended – Potato Creek Church.  Such a beautiful old place that holds many many memories, I’m sure.

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And since I’m sharing pictures, I have to share one last one.  Now, I can’t remember – did I mention that this run was hilly?  HOLY COW, it was hilly.  And at one point, I kid you not, I saw something painted on the road that cracked me up.  I’m convinced that someone else before me tried to run this thing and happened to be carrying a can of spray paint along with them on thier run:

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I feel ya, fellow runner.  That’s exactly how I felt too!

So, anyway, this blog is not going to be like most of my others.  I usually try to wrap up with some type of life lesson that I’ve learned from some experience.  But nope.  Not this time.  I just wanted to tell you about a run with my grandpa that I finally took the time to do.  A run where I cleared my mind, appreciated the scenery, traveled back in time in my mind to try to experience what it had been like for my ancestors before me.  You know – just took a break from everything else and appreciated who I was and where I came from.

Hmmm.  Maybe there’s a life lesson to be learned in this after all.

Thanks for the run, Pa-Paw.

6:00 a.m. country song (Hey, it was 6:00 a.m. – give me a break…)

So, I just woke up the other morning from a dead sleep and these lyrics were in my head. No kidding. That doesn’t happen often, but when it does, I just get that junk out on paper. And here ya go. Hey, I’m sure Reba is gonna be beating my door down any minute, so you all can say you ‘knew me when…’ 😉

Honest Mistake

I owe you an apology for some confusion here tonight
See, I mistook you for someone I used to know
That man, when he saw me, would have held on to me tight
That man said he’d never let me go.
I hope you can forgive this case of mistaken identity
(It couldn’t be possible for one man to be so fake)
Surely that wasn’t you making those promises to me
I guess this was an honest mistake.
***
Chorus:
He sure looked a lot like you
You remind me of him
Same head of jet black hair
Same dimples; same sly grin
So sorry for bothering you
You must have more hearts to take
Continue what you were doing…
This was just an honest mistake.
***
Imagine how silly I feel just walking up to you like that
Expecting you to be the one I’d known so long
Don’t worry though, I’ll be fine; this won’t set me back
This is not the first time I’ve been wrong
No, thank you for the offer, but I cannot be your friend
The resemblance to him is hard to take
Go on back to your life, and I’ll go back to mine
This was just an honest mistake.
***
Repeat chorus:
He sure looked a lot like you
You remind me of him
Same head of jet black hair
Same dimples; same sly grin
So sorry for bothering you
You must have more hearts to take
Continue what you were doing…
This was just an honest mistake.
***
Tag:
Yes, go on with your life, and I’ll go back to mine
This was just an honest mistake.

~ 2/3/13 ~

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