“My heart leaps up when I behold a rainbow in the sky.”
– William Wordsworth
[Warning: This is going to be one of those fuzzy warm feel-good kinda blogs. I mean, it’s about a rainbow. You had to see that coming. Don’t say I didn’t warn you…]
Ok, so I know sometimes I think too much. Sometimes I might see more in a situation than what might really be there. I get that about myself. (Of course, in my defense, I still stand by the fact that it’s better to see too much than to see too little.) But I had a pretty cool experience this morning and I want to share it.
As most of you know, I had a car accident a week ago yesterday. My car flipped down a bank and was totaled, but thank God I walked away with just a headache and a few scrapes. Now that I’m ok, I get to deal with a different kind of headache…the avalanche of insurance paperwork aftermath. Ugh. But in all the crap I’m having to deal with, there’s one thing I’m not having to worry about. And that’s transportation. My incredibly generous boyfriend has offered me a spare vehicle to drive.
And it’s not just any ol’ vehicle, mind you. It was his dad’s.
Richard’s dad passed away a few years ago, and he meant the absolute world to him. I know he misses him every single day. So, I know that trusting me to drive his vehicle is a pretty big deal. I, unfortunately, didn’t have the pleasure of knowing him. I came into Richard’s life just a little too late. And from what I have come to understand, I really missed out. I remember over a year ago when Richard and I first started seeing each other. Anytime I would mention the name of the guy I was dating, local people would say, “Oh, Richard? Yeah I know him. Great guy. Clyde was his dad, right? Clyde was such a good man…” It never failed. Happened every single time. I hope I’m remembered like that one day.
And incidentally, even though I never met him personally, I feel like I know him by knowing Richard. Because from what I’ve heard of him, his son is just like him. I have a Keith Urban CD with a song on it called “Song for Dad.” Here’s an excerpt from the lyrics:
In everything he ever did
He always did with love
And I’m proud today to say I’m his son
When somebody says I hope I get to meet your dad
I just smile and say you already have.
So yeah. In a way, I already have.
So, anyway, back to the rainbow.
This morning, as I was driving to work in Clyde’s vehicle, I was thinking about all of this. I was just feeling so grateful for having a way to get work, and was thinking about the huge amount of generosity that allowed for that. Which made me remember another thing that I’ve heard about Richard’s dad. Richard has always talked about how his dad was always so willing to help anyone who needed it. And he would do these things quietly, without fanfare or recognition. He just wanted to help. As I remembered this, I realized that his legacy is still living on. He’s helping me, someone he’s never even met – through his son. He’s letting me borrow his car. And he’s doing it quietly. Without recognition. Without fanfare.
Something about that thought made me feel better about using the vehicle like I am. Rather than feeling like a burden, I feel like I’m helping a story to continue on like it should. Make sense?
And I kid you not – the very moment that thought crossed my mind, I glanced up and there was this gorgeous rainbow stretching across the sky. I mean it, it was absolutely beautiful.
Just a scientific coincidence? Maybe. Maybe it meant nothing at all.
But could it have been more than that? A gentle agreeable “nod” from beyond? A sign?
Yes. Maybe it was. At least I like to think so.
In fact, I like to think that signs like that are all around us a lot more often than we take the time to notice. We just have to remember to keep looking up to see them.
“There’s a rainbow in the sky all the time – don’t be blind.”
– Ziggy Marley